Today for me was one of those days when you stop and just watch everything you're going through pass through your thoughts and you can't catch your breathe. My life has been a thunderstorm lately that I can't always seem calm down.I've been having the hardest time with my family right now and its hard pushing through it everyday. Now my mom has decided to move on with her life and make some choices I don't agree with and it hurts. My mom and I havent been talking. There are a number of other things that are going on but these are just some of the main problems. Things just keep coming up in my life that I have to struggle with and I wonder sometimes what God is doing. I know that the things that are taking place in my life are for a reason but..why? I'm loosing the relationship with my mother. I have a broken family. School is coming..and I have wicked hard classes. I just want to be free of my worries. Whe I'm stuck worrying and being upset with all my problems I tend to blame everything on myself. On top of that I worry about my future and whats going to happen. Time with my friends and God are so valuable to me. Its the only time when I can just be honest with who I am and be worry free. I give my burdens to God and feel free and my Godly friends just make me feel like I don't have to worry and be sad or despressed because we're here to have a good time! All of this just came to mind to day when I went to my friend Caroline's birthday party. Today God put a little more emphasis on the promises he made to me. That I really dont have to worry because when it rains..He is my umbrella.I just have to give everything to God and trust in him and have faith that he will pull me through. Our spiritual war in this world isnt against the flesh so I am not look for someone to understand. I could use some words of encouragement. And if you've ever felt like I did today. Leave your thoughts.
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